Ok, I have decided to make this a thing.  I know you are thinking what thing?  This thing…

I write, then I don’t, then I do. I make promises to write more often, but then I don’t follow through. The unpredictability of my current situation causes me such anxiety. I want to be consistent with this blog. I want to run groups, provide consulting services and support people with ADHD, but I am unsure how to make this happen. I’ve been trying to figure out what I would do and how I would do it, but I can’t seem to get a handle on it. How do I turn this into reality? I’ve searched on LinkedIn and messaged people to ask how they started, but no one has responded. I’ve had clinics bring me in with promises of groups, and nothing ever materializes. After all these years, I feel like I should have learned to just do things myself, but I feel paralyzed when it comes to making decisions.  

I have so much to offer and am really skilled at helping people with ADHD. I am confident in my abilities; that is one area I feel secure about. My capacity to support and relate to others like me is somewhat remarkable. I can honestly say that it rarely goes wrong. I think I will dive in both feet, true ADHD style—stop overthinking and just do it. That’s how I ended up pursuing my PhD, which I question daily as I keep going. I just finished my last paper for the final required PhD course, and now all that’s left are my last seminar, my comprehensive exam, and my research. I say “all” like it’s nothing, but it’s a lot. Still, all the coursework is done.  Fortunately, it means a lot to me, so my stubborn ADHD self will complete it. It may take some time, but I will finish.  The goal is for my dad to be there to see me graduate with my PhD.

Sorry, I am all over the place. I think I want to just put it out into the universe and see what happens. I am going to jump in and hopefully, by the new year, have a website and everything set up to offer consulting and support for ADHD. I will also keep bugging people to help me and continue sending my papers to be published until someone gives me a chance. The hard part will be not taking the rejection personally, but my sensitive ADHD self will struggle with that too. Anyway, I am going to do this. I believe in myself, and this is the only way to achieve this dream of mine. If anyone has any advice, please send it along — it’s all welcome and appreciated.

BTW… I am going to be more consistent with the blog…pinky promise…for real