This is a post I started to write, then stopped and came back to. I checked to make sure I had not already posted it and did not see it. So, here it is….

I want to be there for everyone.  I want to make a difference and improve the lives of everyone I meet.  I want everything for everyone!

As someone who takes on the feelings of everyone around them, all I want to do is help everyone feel comfortable with who they are. I believe the key is to share—sharing my experiences, both the good and the bad, including the ugly. The struggle is that I have so much to share and don’t know where to start, which means I must decide. That, for me, is kryptonite.

I think I need to focus on what is causing my paralysis right now.  It is a combination of the book I am supposed to finish and planning for the future.  I would combine the two because that makes the most sense, but they are related and not related.  The book is an academic book, a combination of my master’s major research paper and a few papers I have written on related topics.  What I want to do in the future is support and advocate for people with ADHD, speaking from lived experience. I need to get people to hear me, listen to my wisdom…lol

I have many people encouraging me and assuring me that my voice will help others.  I believe this and need to make it a reality. I need to focus on the book, which has a deadline fast approaching. It is together, kinda not really. What my ADHD mind sees as together probably varies from the rest of the world. It is relative depending on who you ask, and I assure you, there will be many edits.  Besides, my nonlinear way of thinking spills over into my writing, and the fact that I have never written a book before. 

I feel like my stubbornness will get me through the roadblocks my mind puts in the way, and my mind creates so many roadblocks.  To the point that they appear without my even realizing they have reared their ugly heads. The roadblocks are another aspect of my ADHD that holds me hostage.  

I am determined to make this work, to help others like me.  I think I will create a website and see what happens. Really, what’s the worst that could happen….

Website link to follow… eventually